The WAY to Freedom

  I know the consequences of having diabetes--and I went through about 5 years of being non compliant...since I was an adult it wasn't give that term because who am I going to be compliant to?  I wasn't taking care of myself and I would go to the doctor and express my depression because I couldn't change that I had diabetes and the highs and lows were taking a toll on my body.  I was lethargic, emotionally stressed and tight wound all at the same time.

 My doctor would express his disappointment that he couldn't help me because he didn't have the information necessary because I wasn't testing or taking insulin or eating regularly.   My husband started teaching my kids coping skills and how to deal with a mom with high blood sugars.  We have done rules where they have to say mom check your blood, they have walked out on me because I was screaming because my sugars were 400 and I was having a hot flash of anger...

To TELL THE TRUTH---DIABETES SUCKS and BLOWs at the same time...it is a vortex of living hell (if you don't take care of it)  Everyone who has diabetes knows this---we all want to be free...There is only one way I have found to actually be free of the hassle that is diabetes---The hassle of worry that comes with: wounds that wont heal, organs that won't work right because of damage from Highs, Nerves that are destroyed, eyes that are blind because of highs, brains that are damaged because of highs and lows, etc, etc, etc---basically dying one body part at a time in the most painful way possible and putting my family through that pain also of losing me one body part at a time...

That WAY is ---Testing, bolusing, testing, bolusing, eating, testing, celebrating because the number was amazing and you don't have any insulin on board and you haven't eaten in more than 2 hours.---coming back from not testing or bolusing is a process that takes time.   To actually be in control, I have to do it all the time.  Even when you don't want to, even when you are rushed, even when you are late, even when.....fill in the blank.  Testing and bolusing or celebrating...period.

This is a simple, easy not complicated thing to do that we don't want to because we might be afraid of the number or the result, because we know we ate that donut...or that extra piece of pizza and forgot to bolus.

People have been asking how to get an A1C below 7% on a T1D Facebook group that I am a member of.  When I was pregnant with one of my kids(yes I have more than one--to the chagrin of a certain endocrinologist from my last Pregnancy)  my routine was: wake up, test, bolus, eat  a couple hours later, test, bolus, eat    bolus eat, eat bolus, eat bolus ( this was the time I was so nauseated that if I didn't eat I would be sick, sick, sick; you learn really quickly that eating = good, fasting = bad.  That's not a good scenario with a diabetic because I had to bolus every time I ate something, cuz my baby would have "birth defects" if my blood sugars were uncontrolled,,, etc etc etc.

Needless to say, all of my kids are happy, healthy, and growing and NORMAL.....well--I think Exceptional....