Eating Patterns

 I used to be able to eat anything I wanted. I was 15

I used to be able to take insulin for what I wanted to eat with great results.  I was 20

I used to have the energy to do anything I wanted.  I was 17

It's 30 years later..

I can't eat anything I want, I can't take insulin and eat anything I want; I don't have the energy to do anything I want.

I am losing the desire to do the things I wanted to do when I  was 20.  

I never thought I would miss always going low in the middle of the night and being under 90 every single morning.     I do now. 

I'm most worried about the desire loss.  But I am not going to let it beat me. 

I haven't lost my thirst for learning how and why I need to do things a certain way.

I haven't lost the need to have so many tools in my emotional, physical, and mental toolboxes that I'm prepared for the worst that can happen. 

I need to increase understanding about how to eat to reduce the carbohydrate in my meal to next to zero.

                      And Still get enough to eat.....

Is it possible?  Maybe.  Will I find an answer that works for me?  Most assuredly.

How?  That remains to be seen.

By having an open mind and being willing to set aside my skepticism. 

By using a log to show my results.

By asking for help from somebody who knows more than me and then getting to work. 

What other path is there? ( this is a rhetorical question)

Neuropathy and a Hint of Blessings

Yep--I have been kinda busy--I don't have a habit of posting--I don't even think about it.   The last three sentences make me think about that line in the Princess Diaries where she says: and just look at all the times I use the word I....

I woke up this morning with a pinched nerve in my lower back that made my legs feel like they were just waking up from a long sleep...It scared me--I thought--oh no--neuropathy!  Crap!

A visit to the Chiropractor helped get the bone off of the nerve and I have had lingering numbness all day.  I am going to my neck doctor tomorrow to complete the move because my upper spine is out too...I hope this takes care of the problem.

It made me think about how having neuropathy would seriously mess up someone's quality of life.  If you can't feel your feet or the condition of your skin on your toes or you nails, how will you know when there is a problem?  Would your feet die? --

Even worse--if your blood sugars are not controlled enough to cause end stage neuropathy, they are also bad enough to cause nephropathy (kidney damage)--I don't know the -opathy word for liver damage...

I have thought about what having diabetes actually means in a real sense for an extended lifetime, if you live that long.  The negative thinking way to see this is:  a disease where your body dies one body part at a time and it's just a matter of time.

The positive way to look at it is:  I am not Diabetes and I can overcome it--I can choose my actions and my responses to the things happening in my life and I can be proactive in taking care of my blood sugars and doing something about them immediately. I am smarter than diabetes.

I tend to be positive--but I have had periods in the time I have had diabetes that I have been very negative about it; yes it has blessed me in my life, but.....That is what I sometimes--well maybe--a lot more than sometimes...think.  Tomorrow I will tell you about a blessing I experienced a couple of weeks ago that was a direct result of how I have taken care of my body because I have diabetes.