Eating Patterns

 I used to be able to eat anything I wanted. I was 15

I used to be able to take insulin for what I wanted to eat with great results.  I was 20

I used to have the energy to do anything I wanted.  I was 17

It's 30 years later..

I can't eat anything I want, I can't take insulin and eat anything I want; I don't have the energy to do anything I want.

I am losing the desire to do the things I wanted to do when I  was 20.  

I never thought I would miss always going low in the middle of the night and being under 90 every single morning.     I do now. 

I'm most worried about the desire loss.  But I am not going to let it beat me. 

I haven't lost my thirst for learning how and why I need to do things a certain way.

I haven't lost the need to have so many tools in my emotional, physical, and mental toolboxes that I'm prepared for the worst that can happen. 

I need to increase understanding about how to eat to reduce the carbohydrate in my meal to next to zero.

                      And Still get enough to eat.....

Is it possible?  Maybe.  Will I find an answer that works for me?  Most assuredly.

How?  That remains to be seen.

By having an open mind and being willing to set aside my skepticism. 

By using a log to show my results.

By asking for help from somebody who knows more than me and then getting to work. 

What other path is there? ( this is a rhetorical question)