I used to be able to eat anything I wanted. I was 15
I used to be able to take insulin for what I wanted to eat with great results. I was 20
I used to have the energy to do anything I wanted. I was 17
It's 30 years later..
I can't eat anything I want, I can't take insulin and eat anything I want; I don't have the energy to do anything I want.
I am losing the desire to do the things I wanted to do when I was 20.
I never thought I would miss always going low in the middle of the night and being under 90 every single morning. I do now.
I'm most worried about the desire loss. But I am not going to let it beat me.
I haven't lost my thirst for learning how and why I need to do things a certain way.
I haven't lost the need to have so many tools in my emotional, physical, and mental toolboxes that I'm prepared for the worst that can happen.
I need to increase understanding about how to eat to reduce the carbohydrate in my meal to next to zero.
And Still get enough to eat.....
Is it possible? Maybe. Will I find an answer that works for me? Most assuredly.
How? That remains to be seen.
By having an open mind and being willing to set aside my skepticism.
By using a log to show my results.
By asking for help from somebody who knows more than me and then getting to work.
What other path is there? ( this is a rhetorical question)
