Body Talk--Hi's, Low's and mostly Mental stuff

Pay Attention!  Sometimes, it's really easy to ignore things my body is doing.

We all constantly get feedback from our body on all the activities we do, everything we eat, drink, absorb...

Are we paying attention?  Does it take a trip to the doctor before we start really paying attention?

The faster my blood sugar falls, the more anxious I get...I get a feeling like something isn't right and I don't know what it is. 

When my blood sugars are high, I am PARANOID...  It took me a few years to overcome the negative thought patterns of NOT ENOUGH.    It is possible to break those patterns and it sometimes takes constant vigilance when you are just realizing what is really going on in your head.

I used to write my thoughts and journal a lot....Just a couple of months ago I re read those pages...I have 2 journals full of negative self talk...I wasn't intending to put those words down.  It was almost like I was completely unaware of what I was writing and the power those words were having in my everyday life. 

They affected every thought process, decision, judgement I made about myself, my friends, my neighbors, my family, strangers....Do you know who always got the benefit of the doubt?  Friends, neighbors, family, strangers.   ....NOT ME!

The hook was never taken out of me.  I was always on the hook.   Does this sound familiar? 

Try it.  listen to what your brain says...write it down.  then: listen to Craig Manning on YouTube...

He has a Channel called:  The Fearless Mind.

Read a few books:  The Anatomy of Peace by Arbinger.    Loving What Is by Byron Katie.

Listen to the audio of The Untethered Soul...

We all have to battle the beast...we are just sometimes unaware that the beast is US. 

Recognize the fight.  Win the battle.   Keep going. 

Not Calling Names...Developing Grace and Beauty

   I'm trying really hard not to call people names...it just feels wrong somehow. trying to be more dare I say "Christlike"..???

One thing I think is my business is my business and yours is your business...I have a hard enough time taking care of my stuff...much less trying to regulate yours.

I never understood how...not why but How anyone would even have the energy to try to regulate the behavior or choices of another human.....If I haven't gotten control of my behavior, I have no business trying to regulate another's.....

I used to think: Well they aren't thinking of me anyway so why worry about it...so I didn't...and then I was cold and unfeeling...but its just practicality....

One of my friends was my walking partner for 6 months and she never understood why I never wanted to talk about diabetes. Then in January her 5 yr old was diagnosed. I got a text..."I now understand"....I would never wish this on my worst enemy...I try not to have enemies...but it's sooo hard.....It's really easy to get down....but...if you do get down---how do you lift others up? Sometimes I have to put on my big Girl panties and deal.....

Sometimes Life is HARD---and sometimes we have hard choices to make...if we choose to avoid--the choice gets made for us.

I always have a choice what to say....and then I go low and that choice seems to disappear....I always have a choice how to behave and then I have high blood sugars and I will say or do things that if my glucose is in the normal range I would be horrified...

Life is about knocking of my rough edges and being smoother.....fixing my stuff, dealing with my stuff and finding a way to live and age with grace and beauty.

Remember: Grace and Beauty...beauty in the body, the soul, the actions and the behavior. Grace in the demeanor, the comradery, the forgiveness....

Don't let life live you....make deliberate choices and live your life...your way.

OK: enough said...

Chrystal