I'm trying really hard not to call people names...it just feels wrong somehow. trying to be more dare I say "Christlike"..???
One thing I think is my business is my business and yours is your business...I have a hard enough time taking care of my stuff...much less trying to regulate yours.
I never understood how...not why but How anyone would even have the energy to try to regulate the behavior or choices of another human.....If I haven't gotten control of my behavior, I have no business trying to regulate another's.....
I used to think: Well they aren't thinking of me anyway so why worry about it...so I didn't...and then I was cold and unfeeling...but its just practicality....
One of my friends was my walking partner for 6 months and she never understood why I never wanted to talk about diabetes. Then in January her 5 yr old was diagnosed. I got a text..."I now understand"....I would never wish this on my worst enemy...I try not to have enemies...but it's sooo hard.....It's really easy to get down....but...if you do get down---how do you lift others up? Sometimes I have to put on my big Girl panties and deal.....
Sometimes Life is HARD---and sometimes we have hard choices to make...if we choose to avoid--the choice gets made for us.
I always have a choice what to say....and then I go low and that choice seems to disappear....I always have a choice how to behave and then I have high blood sugars and I will say or do things that if my glucose is in the normal range I would be horrified...
Life is about knocking of my rough edges and being smoother.....fixing my stuff, dealing with my stuff and finding a way to live and age with grace and beauty.
Remember: Grace and Beauty...beauty in the body, the soul, the actions and the behavior. Grace in the demeanor, the comradery, the forgiveness....
Don't let life live you....make deliberate choices and live your life...your way.
OK: enough said...
Chrystal
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